Happy Beltane to all! I was up at 4AM collecting morning dew under the full moon. What a glorious experience. And even though it looks like it's gonna rain, I'm gonna go hand start my Beltane fire. Have a wonderful May Day!

Since birth I've been extremely connected to nature. As a kid, I rarely watched TV. I was also outside in the woods (barefoot of course), or out with the animals in the backyard.

My mother is kind of Catholic. She had me baptized and sent me to CCD classes, but we rarely went to church. In CCD, I questioned everything they told me. It all sounded wrong to me. I felt I didn't belong there. I eventually left after the CCD teacher tried to take my class out on a "field trip". He was unauthorized to take children out of the classroom. I refused to get into his car. I never made my confirmation, and never went back to church.

It was either my freshman or sophomore year in high school when things started to come together. My friend Erin and I were at the mall when we happened upon a book of spells and charms. We pooled our money and bought it together. (I still have it!) To this day, neither of us have a good reason for why we even wanted it. I chalk it up to fate.

We locked ourselves in her attic, made a make-shift altar, and attempted meditation, chants, and charms. Eventually she lost interest and went on her own path. I, however, was hooked. My thirst for knowlege of this craft became intense. Something about it pulled on the strings of my soul. I knew this was something important that I needed to divulge in. The next book I bought was Raymond Buckland's "Witchcraft for Beginners". This was a major turning point. This big, blue book taught me that Wicca isn't just spells and charms like I had thought. It was a religion, a way a life. And everything he said felt right to me. I must have read that book front to back a million times in utter ecstasy. Finally! something made sense. This was it.

Throughout the years I read every book I could get my hands on. Luckily, my best friend Jay was also finding his way onto the path. We exchanged books and ideas, and I was grateful I had someone to talk to about it with. After I got my basic knowledge on the Craft, things kind of went static. I did random spells here and there, but couldn't honestly say that I was "living it". It was difficult being alone in a small town. For reasons unknown, Jay and I never really did any rituals together. And eventually he lost his way through no fault of his own. Also, as you may already know, the majority of books out there are beginner books which I no longer had use for. Intermediate or advanced material was impossible to find.

Currently, I am trying to incorporate Wicca into the very fiber of my everyday life. I've discovered yoga, which I know is not of Pagan origin by any means, but as a form of meditation, it's very spiritual to me. I meditate as often as I can. I even attend a meditation cirlce on Monday evenings. I spend more and more time outdoors....in our "church" if you will. And I often check WitchVox for local events or circles.

I havn't done a ritual or spell in a while, but I hope to change this. It may sound like an excuse, but living with my boyfriend who is agnostic doesn't exactly help the cause. It just gets so lonely! And although I do attend public rituals occasionally....I'm not always excited about being surrounded by strangers. I'm very shy and would feel more comfortable if I had atleast one person I knew with me.

Maybe I'll do a Deity meditation to find a group/coven.

Greetings everyone. Just formed a page on here and I am looking forward to meeting many interesting Pagans from all over. I'm especially interested in fellow Pagans from the New England area, and having great discussions. I'm a solitary, and don't know many other Pagans really. In fact, only about 3. So please drop by and say hello!